Friday, February 13, 2009

Young, old, under the knife or just a sucker for pills - we all die some time.

By the way, when I went to Google images to dig out a piccy of Tchaikovsky, I came across quite a few of the man, and one (or it might have been on another website) of the man as a lad in his late teens or early 20s. It is always fascinating to compare piccies of people at different ages, seeing a picture of someone you know as an old biddy and realising "Christ, she was a cracker when she was younger".
When I think of myself - and I'me sure this is true of you, too, I see, in my mind's eye, a chap who is at least 15 years younger than I am now. And when I catch sight of myself in a shop window, accidentally that is, not consciously preparing myself for the mirror experience in order to comb my hair or something, I am always disappointed that I look like such and old fuck.
C'est la vie, or more truthfully, c'est la mort. (Is death feminine in French?)


  1. Patrick,
    Its Kate, Im now worring about you , i hope
    your ok.

  2. Hi, I wanted to write to you but not so publicly on your blog, i couldn't remember if you said your blog was private this time or not. A few things to say. Since you will say I don't know you. But I think over the past few weeks, months, we have gotten to know each other, quite well. I have seen anger creeping up in you. I hope i am not the cause of bringing that to a head. I know you were burying it deep within yourself. But if you do indeed want to let it out, that is a good thing. But please not to do it so negatively. Your new blog is a good example: not the content so much, but the profile, and references., labels.. it doesn't seem to be you. the Real you. who i thought was loving, likes to hear children laughing, wanted to live life.but again you would say i dont know you. i hope it is not the real you, i would then say. please share beautiful photos and music,But you seem to be letting your anger (about your living circumstance, or your life)or your getting old) get to you!!! dont let that happen!!! Please, you are a good, interesting,funny person. i love it when you make me laugh. You have a lot to give. esp to your kids, your writing. to your self. I miss the old Patrick, the guy i met at the bar, the sophisticated sexy one. Where is he???kate Kate